Its me... agn.

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2007-01-01T14:40:00.000+08:00

Want to thank you for coming(: I'm keeping this blog for the links. But for the posts i'm moving to MySpace. For the update, I got into 2j and I'm getting on fine. Ok, like you would care.

anyway, Wish everyone a great 2007.

2006-11-09T15:25:00.000+08:00

Ok. I just went blog hopping. Here's smth.

I'm totally not being horrid or un-nice to you. You're the one that's been being not that nice to me. You started dao-ing me for no particular reason I can think of apart frm some deep-dark reasons that ought not be mentioned. And I would like to thank that particular person who spoke for me. To think that person actually did smth like dat for me despite knowing the consequences and knowing that you dislike me alot. All I can say is, don't be so, well, afraid of certain things. We're still sisters in christ. And I do not wish to spoil harmony between us. Although... well. Its already kinda spoiled.

Well. That's a little note to a certain -someone- whom I think should try to forget things and stop hating me like, well. I dunno. maybe you'd think I'm being a hypocrite or being totally. well, dumb. But I think some things need to be resolved. I don't want somebody going on to hate me until the whole batch graduates. I hope -you- read this. My social life has already been a total boo-boo because of some reasons. Its really sad. I dun think -you- actually want to be nice to me or wat. So, if you don't want to be nice to me then... oh well. its your choice. I don't want to meddle in someone else's life. But well. I think you've been meddling with me life alot. And I mean the thumbs down alot. And you never bothered to find out the truth. If you can't be bothered, I shan't be either. I just know the superficial truth that you hate me big time and that you want nothing to do with me and will never ever be friends with me anymore. And. I'm totally fine with it. again, it's your choice.

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I've been watching da chang jin for the past few days. My mom bought the dvd. I'm looking forward to church camp(: and choir camp(: Oh and, I've been having flu. And my voice has become like dou sha. And my vocal range has increased(: Whees. Can't wait for choir camp.

Church camp. Its the children's camp la. So as you can infer, I'm not a participant in the camp but more of an organiser. My first year(: Yay! The teenagers(ranging frm 13-17 yrs old) in my church are organisers of the camp. Hope that we will do a good job in organising this camp. Although we are the organisers. We will still tio punishments if we don't set a good example. By who? The sunday school teachers. And we're learning this song which is gonna be the theme song of the camp. I've only heard the song once which was during last week's meeting. It's quite long and we're supposed to come up with dance moves -.- Luckily I'm not one of the older organisers...

Well. That's about the most recent stuff about me.

Yesterday was memorable.

2006-11-05T19:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was memorable. Its a day which I was realeased from 9 years of hate. Thank God. 9 years of hate, 9 years of bitter sorrow, 9 years of horrid life, 9 years of being trapped in the devil's grasp, 9 years of suffering, 9 years of bottled up anger, 9 years of pitch-black darkness... God's might is just... great. I didn't exactly think of yesterday to come. Everyday's a new day, as they say. And yesterday was a new chapter, new beginning, new lease of my life since 9 years ago. Although. Its kind of weird. Its like you REALLY want to do something, your family members WANT you to do that thing. And you know it yourself that u want to do it. But you can't pluck up the courage to do so. And your mind wants to do it, but your emotions terribly CAN'T forget about it.

I've been crying alot for the past 3 years. Ever since I learnt about what happened during my childhood. I'm not being AA or what. I'm just really glad that I've been given a new lease of life. I want to be a living testimony for God.... But unfortunately, I cannot pluck up the courage to write it down here. Well, I guess there are many chances.

Today. Well, I woke up at 7.45, althought the alarm was set at 7.30, I dragged on for 15 mins until I woke up. Was late for service though. I had bible study after that. And we were discussing on lots of stuff. Oh boy, I LOVE my sec1 friends sooooo much. I guess after being with them for nearly 10 years or more, they have become my confidantes...Wait. Is that the right word? Ok, who cares X) Well, I only came to realise this fact this year. After my terrible experiences in 1f. No offence to my fellow 1f-ians. Some of you were great & SUPERBLY nice. but I just didn't have the chance to be with you all. I was dwelling in my own pool of sadness and disappointment. Its my fault for being so foolish. There were many disappointing moments too. Its been a roller coaster ride. And I only just got off and I am a little dizzy(: Well, I jus learnt something new tis year. Best friends are the ones whom you never ever thought would be. They are just quietly supporting you behind. Taking care of you, pressing on with you. you never realise them until smth really really horrid happens. And the friends you thought WOULD BE, thye leave u in the lurch when you are down in the dumps. And when you are ALREADY in the dumps, they push you even further in. Only people who have been quietly helping you are the true friends. They never ask for anything in return.

I love my church friends. You guys seriously ROCK.

I can just talk to all my church friends in a relaxing mode. I can talk to them about everything, apart from those deepest darkest secret which even ur parents dont know. I guess there is this sense of belonging in me when i am in church. there's this warmth which fills me. Perhaps its because God's strength is strongest in church. Many people will be praying in church, praying for each other. The church is the best place anyone could be in. Especially if u have been in the church for such a long time. Close to 10 years.

Its Holy.

This Week....

2006-10-31T22:56:00.001+08:00

Many things have been happening this week. Firstly, My com spoil.

-.-"

Must be becos I Maple too much. Lol.

daddy bought a new laptop. but, strictly for him and his dear dear WORK. and anyway, he's going to go overseas again soon. haiz. looks like I cant use internet for quite a long time. not until we get our com fixed. which will be maybe, few mnths? Sian. No maple, No blogging for nov-dec holidays. And it seems like my math really got VERY SUPER lousy results. Haiz. So, for this yr's EOY hols, I'll be spending a 2 month honeymoon with my uncompleted math assesment. SIAN.

This yr's holiday is gonna be SUPER boring. And I think there will be many quarrels between me and my family memebrs. -family secret-

MAPLE SPOILS COMPUTERS.

No offence to all those hard-core maple freaks ahem, fans out there.

My computer spoil!!!!

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So sad. I wan cry liao. My poor computer!! With all my baobei MP3 music and games!!!!

Its like I'm grounded frm the computer or smth....

Oh yea, I just watched sinking of Japan last sunday with christina and our family members...

SINKING OF JAPAN IS SUPER NICE!!!

Its like, super super super nice can? OMG lah.

But its really sad. And tragic. The LOVE STORY, to be precise.

Go watch Sinking Of Japan and you'll noe wad happened.

TRAGEDY TRAGEDY TRAGEDY!!!! And super ironic sia.

I cried at the last part. Christina also cried. its SOOOO sad la can?

Oh and my theory exam last saturday was.... OK i guess. Saw choir student conductor there(: And the worse part is that i MISSED CCA PRACTICE. The FIRST cca practice during the hols and i missed it. I can't believe it!!! Im totally like, FREAKING OUT. Ok, WAS totally freaking out when i received information that i WOULD BE missing the FIRST cca practice of the holidays. I was like thinking, wad the... But I guess I got over it. (;

Ok. WHY AM I EVEN FREAKING OUT COS OF CCA????!!!!

Ok. I'm a cca freak -.-"

Anyway, You guys totally HAVE to go and watch sinking of japan. It's really nice. But also very ironic and tragic and sad. Haiz. This movie... For once I saw the bad ending to a realtionship. Most mediacorp shows all have happy endings. This movie was a real eye-opener for me. Mediacorp is a good example of coach daniel's concept of "bad media influence on those lovey dovey relationships with those simple endings" Ok, maybe not bad, but just, well. THEY NEVER LET YOU SEE BEYOND. If you get what I mean.

Well, not all stories have happy endings. In real life. You know what I mean. Real society is a world full of backstabbing and irony. You never know who's real and who's fake. You just can't tell. If you get wad i mean. Your bestest friend might just be a backstabber. Maybe he/she's not backstabbing you. But maybe others. And then, BGRs may have SUPER IRONIC endings. it's just your opinion of ironic and other ppl's opinion of ironic. Things you expected didn't happen or turn out. But Its the EXACT opposite. Now THAT'S a real irony. Listen to mama and papa ppl.

Well. All those things i wrote ^ the same thing, if you get what i mean.

tata~

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2006-10-27T11:57:00.000+08:00

Hm. My results. yesterday just received. quite bad. My average is b3 XD Very lousy, i noe. Next yr duno go to wad class liao la. Anyway, tmr is my theory exam. So i guess I should be worrying abt theory instead of going to wad class nxt yr and sobbing abt my lousy results. oh wells. I guess I'll be happy, wadever class i get posted to. As long as its not a lousy one.

I guess I've learnt lots this yr. All the big issues and small issues. Well, they're fine. I've gotten over it i guess. But who noes what the people think. Anyway, I've learnt how to watch out carefully and be on gaurd. All the bad issues. Well, they're just, really quite, erm, silly, i guess. Silly to cry over it. Silly to get upset over it. It's time to move on. Move on ppl! Get over it. 2007 will be here soon. And my theory exams are gonna poof, appear, and disappear.

Talking abt theory examinations.....

THEORY, TMR.

AHHHHH!!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!

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breathes in~~
breathes out~~

Whatever.

Ok, so tmr I'll be sitting for an exam and I'll probably get so nervous that I'll feel sick. And then, I'll be careless because I'm nervous, thus getting marks deducted for careless mistakes, THUS resulting in lousy results.

WOW.

And I havent even memorised those italian. german and french terms. Am I dead?
I suppose so.

I hope the paper tmr is gonna be easy. So I won't get too much marks deducted for FORGETTING and NOT KNOWING wad are the meanings of the terms. GREAT.

Im gonna flunk.

Although my teacher says I'll at least be able to get a 70. -.-" Yea. right.

My mind's gonna get stuck tmr.

And I'll flunk my theory exam and I won't get to take practical Grade 7 nxt yr. And I DO NOT want to get stuck with another year of theory again. Honestly, I'd prefer practical to theory.

Sian.

New uniform for choir! And yes, Im back

2006-10-24T12:13:00.000+08:00

Kaes ppl. Im back. tis blog has reopened. if anyone actually comes bac to visit. and i hav decided to get rid of e tagboard.

I have gotten over wadever and Im glad now. And i realise that my plight aint the worst. Wells, Had CCA yesterday(: Im HAPPY(:

Took measurements for the new gown for nxt yr's SYF. The new uniform is so CHINESE xD Well anyways, it is still quite nice la. Apart frm the fact that the whole choir will look more like CO than a choir xD

Ok, the new uniform has a top that its dark red in colour. Like those cranberry juice you would drink(: And e bottom is black skirt or pants. The guys' top is quite... funny. haha(: Saw jason wearing it. super funny. hahas.

I tried on the top too. erm. its sleeveless and i dun really like it very much. feel very NOT IN PLACE x/ And the collar of the uniform is SUPER STIFF and high. Goodness la. And my fats show cos its sleeveless. Dun like):

Well, anyways, it still looks nice on some ppl ba. those thin and without fats ones... haha. Can't wait for nxt yr's SYF.

OK, the songs that we're supposed to sing is... well, in a pitiful plight. Its rather difficult to sing. unlike the songs we sang for esplanade concert.
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And the stupid maplestory keeps disconnecting with my com): Have to keep restarting my com and clicking the stupid mushroom hse icon. Pissed off with it. Maplestory GMs. Do SOMETHING ABT IT!!! My com and i believe, many other coms, have this freaking problem. ARGH.

I WANNA MAPLE!!

breathes in~~
breathes out~~

Haiz. Sian life I have. I finally resorted to blog hopping to take up my time. Since i cant execute maplestory program... FINE, I shall do smth else.

Sian.